An Unstill Mirror

As I look into the mirror I see

Layers of self forever unfolding

Me is not at all what I used to be

A newer me always to be molding

As I look I see a me. Five or six

With dark curled tresses so wild and free

Like how an antelope prances and skips

Who doesn’t speak to anyone but me

Then in a quick glance the image has changed

A girl of ten who’s developed a way

To find interest in things in every range

Who promises that it will never decay

 Me at fourteen feels so very surreal

The changes wont stop they will never seal

Auburn Cloud

Dancing in the clouds of jealousy

Of auburn and dashes of brown

Frolicking in the world of fame and stardom

Where everyone knows  who

And why you’re so important

Shining in beauty and poise

Of what only a dancer can posses

As you pirouette into the pupils of

Your viewer who admire the skill

and Jete with a point of focus in to the dark hole

of the less fortune

less talented

less you

The abyss where the others scowl at your beauty

Instead of imitate the beauty the poise

The you

They fuss over what they will only dream of becoming one day

Sometime

In their cloud of blue want and struggle

                                                                                                                                                                                                            

What happens to a broken heart?

Is it forgot, and left to fight for hope?

Does it crumble and crush, so that all that’s left is

Rubble?

Or maybe it cries like an infant with hunger?

Or is it a broken window, that only with a skilled hand

Can it be mended?

Does it cry out but can’t be heard, like a fallen tree in an

empty forest?

Does it blue and black like a bruise?

Or Does it just snooze?

Because it feels the blues?

Or maybe it gropes

In the hope.

Of one day being fixed.                         

What is Poetry

Thoughts which are strung

From the brain to the tongue

From the pen the page

In dark marks of emotion

Decorating a writers canvas

Sashaying across an open space

In beautiful whirls of wisdom

Waiting to be__

Soaked up by the brain of a hungry reader

Whose mind craves the stanzas

Painted by an artist of words 

Auburn Clouds of Jealousy: Artwork emmers

            The famous painter that I chose to study was Edgar Degas. He was born is Paris, France in 1834 to a musical family. His mother was an opera singer and his father liked to arrange home recitals his father was also an art lover and was encouraged by his father to start painting. He went to Lycée Louis-le-Grand School. His mother died when he was 13 and he kept his moms wedding dress. Edgar Degas’ first paintings were called “copies” because he copied the masterpieces of other great artists as practice; most of the paintings he copied were classical paintings. Then he went to Ecole Des Beaux-Art in Paris but he only stayed for a year and he left and decided to visit Italy to study there. Also he copied many Da Vinci and Michelangelo paintings. Then he decided that he wanted to paint things that were more modern and different. He spent a lot of his time painting and sculpting and photographic horses, Dancers and naked women bathing.

 

         The painting I chose to observe is called “ Le Pas Battu” the painting has two ballerinas in it: one is smiling and her tutu’s fuller than the other dancer and her arms are in 5^th high there’s this auburn color in the background near her that reminds me of fire, the other dancer has her hands on her hips, with a scowl, she’s background in blue and black and colors in this painting are very contrasting its almost like its on fire in have of the drawing but in a small corner there are cooler colors as if its water putting out a fire which I think is interesting, because being a dancer sometimes when your on stage its like you’re the star and your burning hot with adrenaline simply just enjoying yourself , caught in the moment. Like the dancer who is elaborately dressed in flowers. Who’s the one is “ on fire” and there’s always some one there to “ cool you off” because the moment got too intense.         

What I can interpret from this painting is this fiery scene is being cooled down by the dancer with the scowl while the other is enjoying the feeling of the fire.

I think this painting could be a symbol of jealousy. Because some of Edgar Degas’ quotes mentioned a star, and he always focused on the star of the performance in most of his dance paintings most of the other dancers that weren’t in spotlight were blocked out by the auburn clouds of jealousy that Degas painted with oil pastel. The only twist in this painting is that this one has the auburn color around what seems to be the star and the bluefish more calm color is around someone who might be one of the girls who are jealous. Another interpretation that I made was maybe since in other paintings other dancers are hidden between the orange like color it could symbolize a dancer who usually doesn’t get to be the star bursts through the barrier between stardom and background and is finally the star and the second dancer could be the star getting pushed of her pedestal.

I really can’t choose a solid meaning of this painting because there are so many possibilities. The situation could be portrayed in away really the only thing that I can make stand for something are the colors I just don’t know what the actual scene is depicting but all I can conclude is that Degas created a mind boggler. 


Source: Loumaye, Jacqueline, Edgar Degas, and Nadine Massart. "Pg 11-3." Degas: The Painted Gesture. New York: Chelsea House, 1994. Print.

Virgin Suicides

The book that I’ve been reading is Virgin Suicides by Jeffrey Eugenides. It starts of in the perspective of a group of boys who live across the street from the 5 Lisbon girls who are beautiful and mysterious which the boys have a facination for. The girls are cooped up in their house because they have extremely strict parents and their nt allowed to communicate with boys or anybody really because their parents are always watching them and it doesn’t help that their father works at the same school that they go to. The first part of the book focuses on Cecilia’s first suicide attempt where she cuts her wrists and lays in a tub of hot water until someone walks in and saves her, not that she wanted to be saved.

         The main topic in the book is depression so far. I can tell that this is the main topic because the title refers to suicide, and the book starts of by somebody attempting suicide and the leading cause of suicide is depression. I think that Cecilia is the most depressed girl out of the Libson daughters because she shows the most symptoms what I mean by this is shes the most anti social, and by the way she talks and is described in the book she has barely any expression and it seems as if she doesn’t really have any hope and she doesn’t feel anything. Which really makes me think that her depression could affect and influence the way her sisters are, because who would want to have to see their sibling feeling like she’s worthless and not wanting to be alive so badly that she’d decided to end her life, that would have to effect the other your sisters because it would be hard to see and not change a bit.

         Cecilia so far is the only character that we know the most about because we even know that she wears a vintage 20’s wedding dress all the time and that shes short and we even know who she liked. Which is a lot different than what we know about the other sisters because all we really know about the others is that their blonde and each one year apart, we don’t know what they feel and we aren’t able to determine weather or not their depressed or not because their personalities aren’t really expressed.

I think maybe Jeffery Eugenides might have did this on purpose so that the reader can create a personality that they see fit for each character to enhance the reading experience.

The relationship of a time traveler and his destined love

I've recently started the book The Time Travelers Wife by Audrey Niffenegger. I'm not that well into the book yet but from what I can tell you is the time travelers wife is about this guy named Henry who's a time traveler and he can't tell a lot of people about his power because no one would believe that it's true and if they did believe the time traveling world would be too congested with people. With his ability he's able to know his future and the people he'll meet. One time he met his wife Clare who is another character In the book. The first time they met was when she was 6 and Henry was much older than her. Whenever Henry time traveled he ended up with no clothes so the first time they met he was naked with a little girl right there. The thing is that Henry always sees Clare when he's a different age usually it's when Clare is much Younger. I think that the age difference will be an issue in this book and it could possibly affect thier relationship and they could end up not married and that could change the future.
I think that the age difference between Clare is going to be a problem because since not everyone is a time traveler nobody who isn't would believe that he's not just a crazy person who ends up in random places without any clothes on. For example henry says "I'm in the back of the police car in Zion,Illinois. I am wearing handcuffs and not much else."(pg. 58) And also" Also I refuse to talk to them,so they still don't know who I am, or where I live. The day They find out I'm toast because there are several outstanding warrants for my arrest:breaking and entering, shoplifting, resisting arrest,
trespassing,indecent exposure, indecent exposure"(pg 59) Henry wouldnt look good hanging around a 6 year old with that kind of record and the police would suspect him to be some type of creep especially since he was charged with indecent exposure so thier relationship will be affected by the age difference as well as his criminal record.